Full Term

As of yesterday, I am 37 weeks. My sweet friend J texted me yesterday while we were on the way to church- “Happy Full Term Day!” She’s great. And I can’t believe I’m here. I can’t believe there’s an actual, fully formed little baby moving around inside me, and now we are just waiting for him/her to decide to come on out and meet us.

I am ready. Last week, I was so stressed and was feeling pretty horrible, and I wanted to evict this little one for physical reasons. Now, I’m just excited. Bring on the craziness!

I do want to stay pregnant at least through Thursday. If you could keep Thursday in your thoughts and prayers, that would be much appreciated. We are meeting with a geneticist to hopefully find out that Grayson has a genetic confirmation of his diagnosis of Leighs. Right now, he has a clinical diagnosis, but if we get genetic confirmation, there’s a good chance he will be able to get on a clinical trial for a drug that could really help him. I’m not hugely optimistic this will happen Thursday (the genetic diagnosis), but remain hopeful.

I’ve read several bloggers’ musings on birth this week, specifically how their first birth experiences were completely against what they wanted and had planned, and how those experiences left significant emotional scars. Fortunately, I had a very good experience with Grayson’s birth and am actually very much looking forward to giving birth again. However, I do have several aspects that I hope go differently. Last time, my water broke so I was induced when I got to the hospital. I’m hoping I can experience more “natural” contractions this time, and hopefully labor some at home, although I will still get an epidural at some point. If possible, I want to do delayed cord clamping and skin to skin right away.

Breastfeeding is my biggest anxiety-inducer. I do have emotional scars from last time, and there’s the point that we won’t know if this baby is healthy or not when s/he is born. I am planning on giving it my best shot, working with a lactation consultant, and watching wet diapers like a hawk. Beyond that, there’s not much I can do. If it works it works, and if not, well, formula will be just.fine.

But for now, we wait. And pack the house for movers next week. And do laundry, clean up vomit, and fit in a few last therapy sessions and doctors appoinments. And I’m trying to enjoy these last few days or weeks of pregnancy, because I know I will miss it when it’s over.

13 Comments

  1. Unknown on January 15, 2013 at 1:45 am

    Thank you for that specific prayer for Thursday. We are going to be praying!

  2. babyfoodsteps on January 15, 2013 at 2:01 am

    Wooo hooo! so thrilled you made it to this mark and BIG prayers for a genetic confirmation on Thursday….can't wait to meet Baby Baker… whenever HE OR SHE decides to make HER 😉 appearance!

  3. Anonymous on January 15, 2013 at 2:02 am

    Praying!

  4. windydays27 on January 15, 2013 at 2:09 am

    Prayers!! Also – I recommend checking out the forums at llli.org and kellymom.com. The wonderful advice in both places helped me get past a lot of my own breastfeeding scars and habe a wonderful feding experience with baby #4. They're especially helpful in the wee hours of the morning when your lactation consultant is asleep 😉

  5. Esperanza on January 15, 2013 at 2:51 am

    I'm so excited for you! I hope everything goes really well and that you find our quickly that this baby is healthy. Keeping my fingers crossed that breast feeding is a more positive experience this time.

  6. allthesunforyou on January 15, 2013 at 2:53 am

    I am praying for Thursday (or later), a more natural birth experience for you, successful breastfeeding, and a genetic diagnosis in a timely manner! And of course, a HAPPY MOVE!Congrats on making it to full term. YAY!

  7. Laurie on January 15, 2013 at 3:49 pm

    This is so exciting!! I'm saying prayers your new little one gives you the time you need until making their big debut. I can't wait to see pics though!! We moved into our new home 2 weeks before Trace was born. I have to say it was pretty crazy – but it all worked out 🙂 Hang in there girl – you're amazing!! I'm also saying prayers you receive the answers you need from the geneticist. I would love for G get on the clinical trial and have him experience some great results!

  8. Kyla on January 15, 2013 at 5:04 pm

    I'm so excited for you! Can't wait to see if Baby C is a boy or girl…but I'm willing to wait until after G's big appointment. Hoping for answers!!

  9. Coco on January 15, 2013 at 6:49 pm

    Yay!!! So exciting! Hoping that Thursday gives you more answers, and not any more questions!

  10. J o s e y on January 15, 2013 at 10:54 pm

    EEKKK!! Prayers for some answers on Thursday, and I hope you have a smooth, uneventful birth at some point soon after that. 🙂

  11. Karen on January 15, 2013 at 11:46 pm

    Praying for you!!!

  12. Erin on January 16, 2013 at 3:35 am

    Thinking about you this week and hoping for answers on Thursday! Hooray for reaching full term, a wonderful place to be! Can't wait for his/her arrival!

  13. SRB on January 17, 2013 at 4:26 am

    Feeling so happy, excited, and hopeful for you guys! Ahhhhhhh!

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