On My Mind

No real coherent post today…just what’s swirling in my brain these days.

  • Dogs. Driving me crazy. I love them, I really do, but they make my life a lot more stressful. And there’s four of them. Sometimes I wish I was one of those people who is ok with giving pets away, but then there’s the moments like now, where two of them are snuggled up next to me while I blog. They are family.

  • Softball. Ryan’s team is in the playoffs- my favorite time of year. I grew up playing softball and still sometimes I miss it so, so much. Anyway, R’s team is 28-1 on the season- Go Falcons!

  • Weight loss. Ryan is doing a weight loss program and has already lost 30 pounds. I am so proud of him. And he’s eating vegetables. Amazing.

  • Vaccines. My research obsession right now. It’s frightening what I’m learning.

  • Sick babies. So many sick babies. Why?

  • Ipad. Grayson won a Playstation in a raffle. We returned it (because G is the last person on earth who needs a Playstation) and are considering using our credit towards an ipad for him. From what I hear, ipads are revolutionizing the way special needs kids learn, but my instinct says that right now, it would just be a really expensive chew toy. I’ve emailed the director of his school to see what she thinks.

  • Scary mail. We got a Care Plan letter in the mail yesterday for Grayson. We will carry it with us so if we ever need treatment for him in a hospital other than the one our Mito specialist is at. It’s an amazing thing to have, but the letter is intense. It basically gives worst case scenario information, so we will be taken seriously in an emergency. It makes the prognosis of Mito patients sound very, very bleak, and is personalized with Grayson’s specific issues. Tough.

  • Sleep Study- scheduled for next Wednesday night. I’m just looking at it as a night out in a hotel hospital room. We check in between 7 and 8 pm- and then who knows how long it will take to set everything up and actually put him to bed. Grayson’s bedtime is 6 pm. This should be interesting.

  • Clothes. My husband says every few months he prepares himself for a meltdown from me about my wardrobe. So R, here is my meltdown. I have an event for work tomorrow- what am I going to wear so I look like a mom professional person?

  • Sheets. We desperately need new ones. But ugh, those things are expensive. I could think of a billion things I would rather spend $100 on. Like clothes.

What’s on your mind these days?


  1. Ryan Baker on May 2, 2012 at 2:26 am

    One Comment! Take money out of savings and go buy you some new clothes. Which I feel is my answer every time I get the statement " I have nothing to wear". 3 closets of nothing but that is ok. I Love to see you happy. I have the greatest wife in the world. I am a very luck man!!!

  2. Traci on May 2, 2012 at 2:35 am

    dogs – mine are driving me crazy too, but the thought of getting rid of them…..sick babies – I hear ya! What's the deal?clothes – ditto!calendar – why is mine always so full? How about a day of absolutely nothing to do?!sheets – you're right, they are way too expensive. I mean, they're just fabric with very basic stitching. ha!sleep – I miss it. Desperately.

  3. Courtney on May 2, 2012 at 3:18 am

    I'm sorry to hear about that letter – it would be a downer. It's got to be frustrating when you're all positive and noticing such great accomplishments, and then you get that letter that's sounds gloom and doom.Yay about the playoffs!I got new clothes today. They were very much needed. Just 2 shirts, a pair of jeans, and a pair of khakis, but still – something NEW for MOM! You go get some too!

  4. andmom on May 2, 2012 at 1:21 pm

    My dog drives me crazy, too. And my cat. Though I think it's that the kids have already driven me insane and I just have no patience left.Make sure you're only researching on reputable sites for vaccines. A lot of the stuff out there is sensationalist bunk. "Dead babies parts! Monkey livers!" etc.I bought myself a new dress last week for a wedding this month. I still feel guilty for spending so much on a dress. Even though I have not bought a new dress since my own wedding .. 9 years ago.

  5. Lee, Michelle, Cooper 4 and Allie 3 on May 2, 2012 at 1:52 pm

    LOVE it that your sweet Hubby is the first one to read your posts and comment !LOVE it that his joy is found in you!Love it that I'm not the only one with a huge closet full of nothing ….

  6. Coco on May 2, 2012 at 2:11 pm

    First, how CUTE is your husband!?! Aw!!! Weight loss and clothes… hurray for your hubby! 30 pounds is AWESOME!!! And I need clothes SO BADLY, but I just can't see spending the money on them right now. So I get to look frumpy and gross for a few months. But losing 10 pounds a month, I think I'll wait until I "land" on a steady weight. :)Vaccines… well, there's some scary stuff out there, but the science isn't very good. My husband is a research scientist, and he is all over this issue. Most of the "studies" come down to correlation, not causation. Basically something else is generally causing both, so they are seen to be linked. And the diseases that they prevent are way more scary, and way more likely, than anything correlated to vaccination. The best study out there is even misquoted and misunderstood. The one about vaccines and autism… the whole point of the study was that food allergies and "leaky gut" were the CAUSE of the autism, and the vaccines were just a side note that everyone latched onto, but nowhere in that study does it even imply that vaccines were the cause. Still, I don't think that vaccines are as safe as we are led to believe. I have some anxiety about it. But I have more anxiety about my kids dying from small pox or being paralyzed by polio (like my mom, although she regained most function she still retains tremors). I need new sheets like crazy!!! But I hate spending that much money on a piece of fabrice that someone hemmed the edges of. So lame. And last, I'm SO sorry about the scary mail!!! We felt the same when we got my dad's paperwork and his DNR stuck to the fridge while he was staying here fighting his losing battle with cancer. I knew he was terminal, but to see it spelled out like that…. AWFUL. *hugs*

  7. bridget on May 2, 2012 at 2:19 pm

    Dogs- I can relate. When my G was little our little Bassett hound was depressed because he was use to getting all the attention. Then I felt guilty and it was an ugly cycle. We asked a few vets for family recommendations – we interviewed a few families and he got a new home. They sent updates and spoiled him rotten. He probably wished he had them all along!Go Falcons! Those fly balls just scare me.I want to like vegetables and loose a few pounds maybe Ryan could do a little how to seminar.Scary mail – Just think of it as your express ticket to the front of the line! Sick babies – only heaven knows. I do know that God is much more concerned with our spiritual health than our physical health and I trust that when we get there the things of this world will no longer matter. Just hard getting through this life.Ipad – YES!!!! So much amazing stuff for language, motor planning, etc. Get an otterbox and it will survive. My G is incredibly destructive and ours is still working!Vaccines! Yesh, what a hot complex topic. So much information out there and so much contradiction.Clothes – find a good sale or for extra fun and the thrill of the hunt – Good Will.Sheets – why are they so expensive??????Sleep study. Been there done that I'll call you. It is like you are on survelliance the whole 23 hours! :)Caroline is on my lap and just asked if I was writing a book so I will STOP! Hugs to you and kisses to G-Man.

  8. Alex on May 2, 2012 at 2:35 pm

    LOVING your husband!!! Both that he lost the weight and especially loving his comment!!! Go get some new clothes – pronto! (I need to take my own advice…)Vaccines scare me. I've read a little about it, but I'm very convinced by the protect the herd mentality, which is why I bring my little one in and get her shots on the prescribed schedule. Yes, I don't love it, but I stick my head in the sand on this one, hoping she's ok…Good luck at the sleep study – sounds awful. But hopefully you'll get some good info.

  9. Kathleen on May 2, 2012 at 8:51 pm

    Our fitted sheet has a huge tear in it, and we've been using a mismatched flat sheet for months because the other one tore too! But seriously, I do NOT want to buy new ones.

  10. Jillian Moller on May 2, 2012 at 9:37 pm

    Great post!What's on my mind? Guilt. Horrible, terrible, overwhelming guilt – about vaccines. Because unlike you, I didn't do my research, until it was too late. Then after E was permanently brain damaged, I was left wondering why I didn't research and live with the guilt everyday. But now that I know better, I do better, and my family is proudly vax free. (and the healthiest bunch you will ever see – no sick babies at my house!)Oh, look up the study by Dr. Shaw about aluminum in vaccines. It is a very good one that has yet to be refuted after several years.Here is another quote that states exactly why herd immunity is a fallacy:‎"That vaccine-induced herd immunity is mostly myth can be proven quite simply. When I was in medical school, we were taught that all of the childhood vaccines lasted a lifetime. This thinking existed for over 70 years. It was not until relatively recently that it was discovered that most of these vaccines lost their effectiveness 2 to 10 years after being given. What this means is that at least half the population, that is the baby boomers, have had no vaccine-induced immunity against any of these diseases for which they had been vaccinated very early in life. In essence, at least 50% or more of the population was unprotected for decades." – Russell Blaylock, M.D.And add me to the list of needing new sheets…

  11. basebell6 on May 3, 2012 at 3:08 am

    omg i loooove that your husband commented. and i agree with the person who said 'good will'. 99% of my work clothes came from there. and speaking of work, i go back in august and peeked in my closet and hate EVERY. SINGLE. THING. i have lived in t-shirts and swish pants for 2 years. yes i will hate everything else for a looooooooooooooong time.

  12. callmemama on May 4, 2012 at 11:58 pm

    This is one of the best videos out there on the vaccine issue – it's long but very informative and "sciencey" – http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pdLMeULoujMAnd yeah, why are sheets so darn expensive? I buy ours at TJ Maxx or HomeGoods for cheap(er), but they are still at least $50-$80.

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